Saturday, April 20, 2013

Enough is Enough BEDA

Real blog post today!! So at some point on everyone's life they have to look at what's going on and realize something is wrong that is fixable. They have to say that enough is enough and stand up for themselves. It'll be hard, and it'll change things forever.  I had one of those moments today. Patrick, who I've mentioned a lot, is honestly a terrible friend. We argue all the time. He hurts me over and over and then spins it so I feel bad about what I did. His sister Victoria and I get along mostly, and his girlfriend and I just pretend we do for his sake. Two or three times he's hit me or grabbed me and left bruises.  Recently I told him for the third time I couldn't keep doing this and gave him an ultimatum. He had to honestly answer 2 questions, and always be honest with me from there on. The first he answered right away. The second he didn't know and I said I'd wait. When he finally texted me an answer it was crap. Me and all our close friends knew from reading it that he was lying. So I spent a few days thinking. We didn't talk, cause he didn't make the effort and I was busy.  Last night I had a nightmare. Instead of the mental abuse I've been dealing with he started actually hitting me instead of siding his words. So I did some dream analysis and thought about our relationship and where I am and all this stuff. Then I had the ahah moment.  I talked to my friend and she agreed with my conclusion. Enough is enough. When he's ready to act like a mature decent person we'll talk. I don't know how it'll go, but I'm hoping it'll make me feel better about myself and my life.  Hard decision always matter the most. I've been on the verge of this for ages. I know I'll probably have trouble, but I'm moving on.  May life be as awesome as you are and DFTBA!

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